Personal Research: Diagnosis

Personal Research: Diagnosis
Intelligence
Patch: 1.0
I have enough of a foundation in psychiatry and human behavior to diagnose and categorize my own particular mental illnesses and pathology. I am not deluded. I know that chemistry can render my mind suboptimal, and that I must take responsibility for maintenance.

Once, to eliminate the possibility of confirmation bias, I hired the best psychologist I could find, and allowed unfettered access. I could tell she was horrified, but she hid it well.

It was a waste. She refused to believe that I was not made who I am by trauma. She needed so badly for there to be some answer, a clear causation to my need to control. A reaction to a stimulus.

The real answer, of course, scared her too much to consider. I am a shadow without a light source. Trauma didn't make me. I made me. In my position, with my resources and abilities, how could I not do what I have done? It would be an abdication of my responsibility to my species not to.

I had her killed afterwards, like I had always intended.

 
Acquired from Mission
The Chimera (Step 27)